Left Us. After Eight Years, He's Back And Had Nothing

 Eight years ago, with tears in my eye, I held his hand,

begged him to stay with me that we will struggle together

and succeed, but he refused. He walked away living me

pregnant. Now, he's back without anything.

We were friends from the University, I graduated before him

because I was studying a 4years course. The very first time,

we tried to take our relationship serious was after my

graduation. We had s.e.-x for the very first time and I

became pregnant.

The truth is, the guy have always been good to me

throughout my stays in school.

I remembered that day he sacrificed his school fees for

mine so I could be able to do my final clearance. But when I

became pregnant, he walked away after convincing me to

keep our baby.

I went through everything all by myself.

Since last year, he has been apologizing on phone, so last

week, I asked him to come. He traveled down to my place.

Without being afraid of anyone harming him from my family,

he believed in me and came. He's around in my family

house, staying in my brother's room for the past 3days.

He has opened up everything to me, my family members

and have apologized.

now, I'm so confused with my life.

He couldn't graduate, he had problem in school after I left

and all this years, he has been struggling, but now he wants

to take responsibility and be with us, but he had nothing. No

certificate, except diploma which he later did from another

school, no job, no place of his own to stay. He had nothing.

He wants us to get married and have a family.

I feel I'm about to add more burden to my already stressed

life.

The only positive thing here now, is the excitement my son

is having seeing his father and the relationship they're

building.

A part of me wants to see this guy have a great life and

have direction and not see him live like this, even if I don't

settle down with him. because when I meant him, he was

kind, a good person, he had dreams, vision and good plans.

But living us alone all this years, with all his explanations, I'm

not contented.

Another part of me is confused, afraid and I feel ishould

push him away and let him go back to his life and keep

moving with my son because I don't have the strength to

shoulder all these.

Please matured mind in the house, what do you have to

say? This is my life and it's getting more confused.

What would you advise? What should I do?

I don't want to make more mistakes.

Sorry for my lengthy write-up